The [Whereabouts]

Friday is parteeh time. It’s usually the end of work and school for most of us, and we always want to celebrate it. But definitely not in my case this week. I had the toughest and most tiring week ever. I got loads of appointment which I can only do after my foreign language class. I hate it because appointments are only during office hours. The only appointment I can set on a later time is my appointment to my dentist who can wait for me til 6pm. I got an additional appointment too when I forgot my ID’s  at the bank so I have to go back the next day to claim it. My blog crashed so I have to fix it too. And Friday morning, mom and dad asked if I can attend my sister’s meeting at school which unfortunately I did. Attending is okay but preparing is not a good idea for someone who enjoys taking a shower for more than 30 minutes and going in circles til someone approach me to go.

So instead of going out to party, I dozed off without having a chance to change clothes. Sleeping is good and has been one of my favorites and I think I deserve it, but hey, it’s Friday.

There is actually a website where you can archive articles/blog entries even if the website is no longer existing. Too bad because my blog is not indexed by Google so I can’t recover anything. I feel like I wanna cry after seeing my blog without any content. It felt like my world went into insignificant pieces. You know that feeling? I was so teary-eyed that moment and even up to now whenever I think about it because I know I wrote them with emotions and I would love to read them again and again and again. I still consider myself lucky though because I’ve associated my blog on my Facebook account that’s why I still have some files to recover. I just feel bad because I have many several drafts in my database which I won’t be able to recover anymore. But I think this is more okay than not seeing anything on my blog anymore. God is still good though because I still have some files to recover. Yeah, maybe not all but I’ve got some. That’s enough for me to start again. Plus I’ve learned a lesson I would never forget.

Having an own website/blog is a little complicated. It’s not just about getting a domain. You need to find a host too and get enough understanding on how to make your blog like your own. Good thing I started to be a computer and Internet slave when I was in middle school so I only have to go through minor adjustments only. I thought I’m gonna be okay. Not more than two weeks now, I’ve decided to redesign my blog – this blog. Old template was just okay but I feel like it’s so dull because it’s just white and nothing more (Oh well, except for the text that’s colored blue and black). I wanted to modify my sidebar too because there’s too much margin, indention, and space that I’m not using properly. So I went out of my blog to check some template that would suit me. I still want the majority of the template white because I see it neat, clean, and would prolly suit the eyes of anyone who might be reading it. It was hard to find a good template so I just focused on looking for a wonderful sidebar. I want a two-column sidebar but I prefer it to be visible on one side only. Fortunately, I got one. I downloaded it and slowly, I customized it. I opened Adobe Photoshop to customize each part of the template that I’ve downloaded including the bookmarks and with some understanding on how PHP, HTML, and XHTML works, I changed majority of the codes so end-product would appear more like me. Everything went smooth not until I reached the footer section which will be the last item that I would have to edit. My blog crashed after saving the changes I’ve made in the footer settings. This is the message that appears every time I attempt to access my WP Dashboard:

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I’m really sorry for bringing up the topic a day before your special day. It wasn’t that timely. I was so frank that when you asked me if I am mad at you, I was not able to organize my thoughts carefully so I can avoid offending you. I always understand what you’ve been going through since I met you, or shall I say, since we became friends. I’m happy because you know where you want to go. You have a path and I hope you know as well how much I support you to reach your dreams. If you think I disappointed you because of the message I was trying to express, then I’m really sorry. I just said what you should hear and not what you want to hear. If only you know how difficult it is for me to be honest when someone asked me a very simple question. I can just answer a yes or a no with your question. It’s that simple. But as a friend, I wanna help you grow. I wanna help you learn. I wanna make you aware of the things that are naked to the eye. I want you to see things far more than what you ought to be. As a friend, I want you to learn how to wait patiently. Yes, it may be frustrating but there is always a right time for everything. If you will try to rush things, you will miss the room for improvement. You might miss a lot of things that I don’t want you to miss simply because I care so much about you. I don’t want you to grow old like a house that was built on the sand. I’d be more guilty if I was able to forecast things to happen, yet I didn’t let you know. I don’t want you to fall if I I know I can catch you. I have my high respect to you.

But then again, if you think think I reacted too much, I’m sorry. I answered you as a friend and not as a supporter. If you think I came to a point that I disregarded what you may feel and for stepping on your ego, please remember that it wasn’t my intention. I’m sorry if I made you feel worthless. It’s just that I don’t want to feel that way when you only have little time. For hurting your feelings, I’m sorry.

I wanna share two quotes from The Little Prince that I always try to reflect whenever I don’t feel right. The fox told the prince,

“It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.”

And here’s a quote from the prince regretting what happened,

“One should never listen to the flowers. One should simply look at them and breathe their fragrance.”

Soon when your heart is ready, you’ll know why I shared that.

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Your good friend,
Aaron James