Dear S,

I haven’t really been myself lately. It’s been more than 5 months since we last talked like we were so in love with each other. Now, in less than two weeks, you will be celebrating your 29th birthday and I want to let you know that not a day goes by that I haven’t thought of you. Every single day, even to this day, I am still hoping that you’d be back and wake me up from what seems to be a nightmare. Just when I’m ready to settle, leave everything that I have and start from scratch just to be with you, you’d call me and tell me it’s the end. It’s so devastating that each day I wake up, I find it harder and harder to mask this depression and make it feel like I’m okay, I’m doing great, and this isn’t going to affect my work. I have decided to keep myself busy. I took extra jobs, enrolled myself to art and leadership classes, I’ve also decided to run and hit the gym, so when I go home I’d feel tired and go to straight to bed. I realized that I can build myself again and be productive. I still think about you everyday. Every single memory never seems to grow old. That almost two years we’ve been together was great and it helped me realize that I’m ready for bigger responsibilities in life and I can think maturely. Who would’ve thought that post online can lead to something beautiful?

Hey, I miss the times when we’d go to a movie house and you’d stop me from buying chips and sodas because they’re not good for my body, instead, you’d get me nuts and apples that we can both enjoy. Also the times when you’d get mad at me because I skipped my meal or I’m staying too late in the office. Those times can’t help me but smile and fall in love again. Thanks, for looking after me and for consistently showing you’re concerned, at least for the times we’ve been together. As painful as it may sound, I need to let go of those memories now so I can also move forward just like you did. Thanks for everything.




Kostel Sv. Ludmily



Setting emotions aside, I would understand why most European countries refuse to accept these migrants from Syria. First, it will destroy the current peace and order present in their country. Consider this, what if there’s a fight happening between two families in the town next to yours and in the middle of the night you woke up because someone you do not know is trying to get into your home. Will you welcome them and offer your bed or will you call the police because someone is trying to cause concerns on safety in your own territory? If that seems to be a too personal analysis, let’s say the Chinese or the Russians had a conflict with their government and they decided to migrate somewhere and they chose your country. How would you feel? Secondly, assuming they have been given permission to stay, do you think that will resolve the problem these migrants are facing? And seriously, Europe? What about their shelter for the next few days? weeks? months? years? Where will they stay? How about their food? clothing? How will they get a job? How about the language barrier? Can they compete with the current locals who themselves are also facing issues with employment? With only a few items in their bags, how do you think can they survive winter? I am not generalizing, but I am sure most of them will just live on the streets. The sound of France or Italy or even Spain will make you want to go there, but once you encounter these people (who started as [illegal] migrants) who will scare and force you to buy their friendship bracelet or souvenirs or else they’ll keep on following you, you will understand why the government is trying to be protective of their country. And when they are already desperate to survive the standards of living from the country they chose, what do you think they will do?

Most of us, including myself tend to overreact online because even before reading an article and analyzing the scenario ourselves, we already come up with a conclusion on how we should react based on images or reaction of others. How one reacts often tend to be the reaction of others (your circle of friends). Those who chose not to react are either those who wasn’t able to read it, who considers it as none of their business, or those who disagree with the thought and just chose to be silent because they’ll be misinterpreted and be called an arrogant.

Don’t get me wrong. I am not trying to be a

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Late Night Thoughts

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