The [Whereabouts]

After being in the dilemma of accepting the overseas job or not, I felt relieved. First, I was able to attend my best friend’s wedding. And secondly, I’m with my family together with my señorito life. The overseas job went into several arguments that even hurted my feelings so I decided to turn down the job offer. What I did after that is to report to the company who offered me a job. I was so lazy to look for work and start again from the beginning so reporting back was the best option left for me. A week during my training, I got sick that made my dad really worried about me so he rushed me to the hospital. The abdominal pain I had was the most painful ever. I never experienced such kind of pain. After some interview and physical examination on where the pain is originating, the gastroenterologist made a conclusion that it’s either UTI (Urinary Tract Infection) or Appendicitis. I got worried but wished that if it’s either of the two, may it be UTI. I’m so afraid of surgery so if in case I’m really sick, I want something that is curable by just medication. So to make sure, the doctor advised me to undergo some series of tests. Some specimens were taken from me like blood and urine samples. There’s no infection but there’s blood in my urine so a Kidney-Ureter-Bladder (KUB) Ultrasound was done as well so as to confirm what’s really happening. The diagnosis? It was nephrolithiasis. I have kiney stones. There were crystals found in my right ureter. My bladder, right ureter, and kidneys were okay though. Man! I’m too young to have that. There were many small crystals. Even though the ultrasonographer said that their sizes are insignificant and curable, that’s still something to worry about. I’m not fond of using dippings when eating. I rarely eat junk foods and that’s just once in a blue moon. I’m not fond of drinking colas and sodas, not even iced tea. So they all find that really weird for my case. I don’t know that foods to avoid now. Sighs. Though I feel bad about it cuz I have to undergo daily medication for three months, I’m still thankful because if I accepted the offer overseas I’ll just die of pain without even thinking of going to hospital. Yes I’m a nurse but I’m afraid of going to hospitals as a patient. I’m still thankful though because it was diagnosed early. I’ll update you all about my case after three months.

Election day is fast approaching. In about two months, we all have to risk something again for the future of our country – the Philippines. But until now, we seem to have no improvement. I think the presidentiables and other candidates should stop throwing stones to one another. The fact that their supporters are immitating them is just really not a good idea. I am saddened by that attitude because we don’t really have to do that just to lift ourselves and put others down. I know that we can always do something better to convince the masses in making a good decision. Yes, Philippines is a free country. We can express anything that we’d like to say. But I think our definition of being free forgot to include respect and understanding. I want to blame the effect of Edsa Revolution – the People Power because since then, we tend to overreact on things without even thinking what we have done to make our country a better place to live in. It taught us to keep blaming others and not to look at the mirror first.

I just am not feeling well. Yesterday, I had a chance to talk to one of my workmates and we’ve shared the same sentiment about “someone”. Well, usually those who talk with sense and those who are smart enough don’t talk that much compared to those who pretend and try hard to show people that they’re cool, smart and full of sense when in fact the more they try the more they’re making it more obvious for people to notice that they’re the other way around. Okaaai. To admit, I really hate it when people talk too loud and too much without having any substance. That’s just another noise pollution that’s shortening the temper of the people around especially with the kind of weather that we have. I know I’ll get over them. If not, I should at least be used to seeing those kind of people even if I don’t want to. Oh yeah, that’s life. Fine.

05 February, 2010

My best friend and I have been talking about her wedding for about half a year now. And in 15 days it’ll be her big day already. I am so happy for her. Finally, she’ll be marrying her first and last boyfriend and I know how it feels for both of them. We even had a thread on Facebook where all of our friends are actively participating too. I’m a little preoccupied about this matter though. I don’t want to miss my best friend’s wedding because of the job I’ve got overseas. That might one of the good breaks I’m waiting and I don’t wanna miss it too. I talked to mom if I can schedule a flight after Celine’s big day in case this overseas work would need me to report asap and she said that it’s something out of our control anymore. It’s already a matter of when the job would need me and it’s for me to decide. I felt sad about what she said because that may be one of the last requests I might have before I leave again. I don’t know what to do if I can’t have both.

10 February, 2010

I turned down the job offer due to several constraints. Well, it’s ok. At least I can breathe easier and move on. I’m happy anyway.